Today Onwards

Just don't effing talk about/ask about my works to me the next 3 months and I mean it. I want to enjoy my long deserving holidays like finally to the maximum. And this will be my last work-related post.

Aal iz well, aal iz well.

Today

14 Days Left!

With the calendar right in front of me, I can't help but counting down to the last day of internship over and over again. 14 working days. 18 days inclusive of weekends. Even though I'm not even done with my final presentation, the excitement remains there.

People been asking me to extend my internship. Even I myself thought of doing that earlier. But now, seriously?! No way!!

S or No S?

I DON'T GIVE AN EFF ANYMORE! SO F IT!

Can't Help NOT To Worry

This is meant for me to vent out my anxiety towards my soon-to-be final presentation to the HR staffs in shell. Well, it's a matter of employment or not for me; something which I can't help not to worry for since the first day I entered Shell.

My supervisor and colleagues are undeniably great people who will lend you a hand when you are tangled in difficulties, helpless situations and some crap moments you might have with other people. But, what's driving me crazy is they expect me to know something clearly which at some time, I might not know.

And working with caucasians, there's always the risk that they will compare you with the Europeans/American back in their country, forgetting that we are those typical Asians. For Asians, we are shy and we don't talk much crap when on the phone. On fine example I came across would be when I visited BSP with Andy from the state.

Usually, when the Asians make a phone call, we always start with a simple hello and straight into the point without beating around the bush. But, for the caucasians, they will go like "hey, how have you been doing? How's your wife Marie?......" and they go on with some spice of their life for like 5 mins then only they go into the purpose of their calls and stuffs. In this case, they will either said the Asians have no manner or shy or not proactive.

Or in some other case, when you are at work, the best thing would be do not let your bosses catch you chit-chatting with friends at the corridor. This is one common thing where all Asians avoid pretty hard. Let the boss see that they are digging into their works passionately and not letting them having the chance of catch them bullshiting at the corridor. But, if your boss is caucasian, you might have to do it the other way round. Need I say more? Because for them it is like "wow, you are having some serious discussion with the engineers..." and etc etc.

To sum it up, I might be too general or stereotype in this. But what I want to say is, it is difficult to please everyone in the same cubicle. Some expect you to be like this, some expect you to be different than that.

My message to whom it may concern would be: You have secured a job in Shell. Now, it's my turn to get my best shoot. If I fail this time, I will be hindered from applying shell for the next 2 years which is a big thing I tell you. So, please. You know seeking for employment nowadays is difficult and please don't screw with me. Be a good Samaritan, let me pass otherwise I will just hope that Karma will hit you back soon.

Yes I know this sounds desperate but who won't be at this point? Go die if you are not.

7a.m.

I dreaded waking up as early as 7a.m. every of my weekdays for the work (internship). I checked in onto my bed at 11p.m. sometime but the fact that I only fall asleep after 12 midnight remains there.

My seniors who are employed and working their asses off been telling me that it's time to face the reality. But mind you, I have another year to go before I face this wake-up-at-7am-and-go-to-work reality.

I hope you enjoy yours now because the only reason I'm looking forward to the end of internship is I do not have to wake up early every single morning anymore! I am not an early person.

9 weeks

I just realized my internship has 9 weeks left to go. Minus out the bridging and Gawai holiday, exact 8 weeks left for me to be in the office, playing with the coffee machine every 2 hours, roam around the office mindlessly, bullshit with friends and the next minute you realize, *tadaaaa* wan sin will be out of Shell office happily if Landale passed my assessment or with a pissed off face if he fails me.

So what exactly had I learnt in the past 23 weeks other than all the above? Public relation? Yea, I see how gentlemen turn to become one of my bull gang weeks later. For example, my counterpart in taking bottles and bottles of mineral water for free from the training course - Alex. I remember at the very first few weeks of the internship where we just got to know each other better than acquaintance, he was so quiet. But now, I think we can gossip non-stop whole day without any boundary in speech. Oh yeaaaa. This is how strangers become friends anyway, good thing.

Also, I witnessed how lazy I became from time to time. In the beginning, I never NEVER get tired of at least dressing myself up a little before I go to the office. Now, you can see me with slippers everywhere once I'm in my own "cubicle". I do keep a pair of slippers there cause heels kill and sucks (I got blisters like every alternate weeks damn) even though they made me look longer. The fact is it won't change the fact that I'm merely 158.5cm tall.

The only non-hypocrit would be dumbass Preveen where at the very first day, he been showing me his middle finger and scolding me dumbass/asshole/idiot/fcktard and that never change till now. It's just that I start referring him as a fat dumbass as well for now.

Other than all the nonsense you just read and I just typed above, I love Shell all in all. Shell is truly a wonderful place for training indeed where they keep sending you for courses after courses for FREE and the certificates are being acknowledged globally and that my friend I tell you is priceless! I highly doubt other company will not hesitate to send their internees for training and courses for free and continuously like Shell did. I'm not bragging anyway, I'm sharing for God sake.

I just wanna say that no matter how much I ever complain about this company and etc, I'm gonna miss it when I leave and I definitely wish I will go back there right after my graduation.

Dry Run Mode

Because of my supreme _____ (fill in the blank yourself) particularly this week, I'm yet to be done with my preparation for the dry run presentation tomorrow. Things can be way easier but too bad, there is someone whom I have to please him with.

Hi, it's you Landale, my mentor.

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I've been pondering on how to proceed with my methodology and discussion the whole morning and make no avail. *shrugged* I think I need lalapan to make me a little bit smarter tonight. (what an excuse but I like).

Because of this, I have to bid goodbye to my tetris battle for a night. I'm gonna miss you tetris even though you are such a primitive game as according to someone but why is it so hard to get leveled up!

Welcome to life

After speculating on some upsetting diminutive issues just now, I decided to not holding tenaciously with what happened earlier, unwind the stress by blabbering something here and pffft, forgo it.

Dear you,

I hope your little dark covert lies will not be revealed over time. But what you said earlier definitely inflicted some malice blow on our faces. We are definitely not in rigours yet but you are leading us there. I hope you will change and stop saying things that will keep us agape and having the feeling of giving a slap on your smiling face that showed no guilt at all.

Thank you.

And there, I'm a happy girl again.

Note to self: Never quit learning! Bring it on life!

Offshore Experience

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I'm back onshore and missing the magnificent view offshore. Everything seems to be sooooooo huge that I could barely describe it. Being in the middle of the sea, I truly appreciate God's amazing creation for the world seems extraordinary peaceful out there, not forgetting my precious phone line, steady walking/sleeping/eating/bathing place where it is not shaking vigorously or even a little, gosh i miss home even just for few days.

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We planned to catch the sunset in the evening after a very early dinner but seems like we missed it. Yes, we kept feeding ourselves non stop on the barge and slept like babies. Because the barge was moving left - right - left constantly, the theory is like we are sleeping in a baby sway, we have no problem sleeping everyday, except when we are walking and the rest, we felt dizzy everywhere we went. I was off the full PPE zone and thats why I was in casual.

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During the nighttime when we had nothing to do, we would just came out to the deck enjoying the sea breeze and watching the operation going on as rigs never sleep. Managed to watch how nitrogen tank was transferred from the boat to the barge and placed on it. The whole process seems to be so dangerous to us. One mistake and pffff, bid goodbye to the world.

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What I can say about offshore is it was truly an experience worth experiencing :P You gotta be there to know how we actually feel.

Offshore Comes True

Finally, my turn to go offshore tomorrow onwards! Never expect we the internees will be given a chance for such experience. From BOSIET training which covered helicopter underwater escape training (HUET), fire fighting, sea survival training to now, to the barge otto 3 offshore tomorrow, the journey and training definitely worth it!

Too bad we will be going by boat which will take us 1 hours 45 minute. Maybe boat could be better than traveling by chopper? :D I'm being optimistic one thing for sure.

Cry Me A River

I went to meet my supervisor just now and i'm screwed. He asked me to perform calculation on directional difficult index in short DDI.

Based on the journals we read and discuss just now, the formula for DDI will be as such:

DDI = log [MD x (AHD/TVD) x TOR]

Where:

MD = measured depth

AHD = along hole displacement

TVD = true vertical depth

TOR = tortuosity

But the question is, how to calculate tortuosity? Both of us have no idea of the formulae and he just asked me to google it or look up for in it SPE.

T_T My SV will be outstation to Perth for 3 weeks so i'm screweddddd... ... haih!

Wout

the workplace

Location: RTOC Time: 10.55a.m.

Wout (my sv) came to meet me today to see whether i'm on track or likewise. Coincidently the bf (lim) was there after a meeting. As Wout was telling me how busy he was and what I should do and stuffs, he suddenly came out with:

W : Oh by the way, you met lim? (looking at lim)

M : Er.. yea. Hi (look at lim)

L : Haha.. Hi

W : Oh, great that you two know each other. I thought you don't.

........... ..... ..... ....

LOLLLL.

Internship

the workload

This marked my 15th weeks with Shell. I no longer feel new anymore as I'm adapting to the appalling workload day by day. I started my project with nil knowledge on excel (mind you I never even try making a timetable myself before) and my knowledge on drilling is like peanuts over here.

Whatever I learnt since my foundation in utp can be wrapped up as one chapter only in Shell. The people here are so knowledgable, sensitive to current issue that I feel so shameful for knowing so little.

Therefore, I quit complaining on my work and learning to enjoy it. Gotta learn how to dance in the rain sometime.

Thus:

oh yeahhh, i love my works much!