Uni life - Finale Season

8 more days to leaving uni and bidding goodbye to my 21 years of student life. Will I miss it? Maybe yes maybe no. But one thing for sure, I will never miss this place where I spent 5 years in. I made friends, good friends and enemies throughout this 5 years, survived without a car, managed to make it through the cultural difference, huge difference in living culture and etc. 

This morning, had a photo shot session with the four closest friends I ever have in utp. They may have or may not have judged me in the past but whatever it is they are still very adorable. You know, as time goes by, I really don't give a damn on what people think about me anymore. I'm beginning to enjoy living in my very own world, doing things I like without having the need to please anyone. 

Woke up as early as 715am though I slept at 6am only all because of insomnia. My mind was all about baking (my new found hobby), fashion and some other nonsense stuffs. Luckily I'm not a make up type of person, I'm always with my naked face hence I get myself ready real quick. Dressed up casually and off with the guys to Tronoh for our first session.

The night before we discussed about the theme and props that we might need for the photo shot. Thankfully for the early preparation of the props and etc otherwise it will be an awkward photo shot session. But since they are like my best friend, we really don't have any awkward silence or whatsoever. I just feel so damn it comfortable around them. 

The whole villagers are like staring at us wondering what the hell were we doing throughout the whole photo shot. We even did oppa gangnam style publicly. It was embarrassing yet fun. I really enjoyed every single bit of it this morning even though I'm completely drenched in sweat, feeling sticky all over and kind of annoyed by the mosquitoes bites.

Our theme was very simple. 5 years of study life in utp with the phrase "come here with nothing, leave with sweet memories." Indeed I'm gonna miss you guys, the shopping, movie, clubbing, drinking, party rock sessions and etc with you guys but graduating doesn't mean the end of the world, there is always a chance for gathering and meet up.

And with that, I thank you all for bearing with me throughout this 5 years of uni life and thanks for being my friends, my listeners, my shoulders through thick and thin.

:)

And so april comes and goes, but my insomnia remains fml.

As time goes by, I'm slowing wrapping up my university life, though another 4 months to leaving this lousy place. I'm really excited with no tinge of reluctancy. One thing I'm sure of: I will not bloody miss this place, except for some really great friends I have met along the way.

Have been giving a lot of thoughts on my future lately. All I can conclude is I do not want to be in the engineering field for long. I've longed to run a coffee house myself, where its serve really aromatic coffee/latte/frappucino all day long and together with delicious cakes/cupcakes/toast/waffles/pancakes/pastries/scones. The coffee house will be three storeys with three  different themes for each floor: modern, vintage, the french style. Omggggg dreams but I will make it come true one day, hopefully not too long away but soon.

I'm not those type of person who can do the same thing for long, what's more with things which I have almost no passion in it. I love photography, but I do not have time for it because of my studies and other commitments for example, relationship. I love traveling but I find it difficult to find a partner to travel with except for the bf. What more it's tied to his working schedule. Speaking here, I think we are going to burn our Japan tickets. Damn work.

So, when I graduated, I really really want to do something which I have passion in, something which I love, something which I will be looking forward to waking up doing it every morning. For now, what I'm sure of is, engineering is not my cup of tea.

Maybe it can be a good start of savings but I won't be involved in it for long. 

Present, Past, Future

I have been really busy with my final year project, tests and assignments for the past 2 weeks. Even though in between, which some of you may know, I went back Miri just to see my family and to celebrate the boyfriend's birthday. 

To the curiosity of many people, how on earth can this girl whom is yours truly, me, spare the time to go back home with the continuously piling up workload while you yourself don't even have the time to take a puff, a proper shower or even a proper meal? So because of my frequent going-back home phenomena, I have been giving people an impression that I care less or do not even bother about my studies as much as other people do, or my course is simply freaking mad free compared to other courses. 

What I can tell you is, you are so wrong. So wrong that you should really face-palm yourself. I was busy and still busy. But I'm not that kind of person who can be productive or even work under stress. I have to work to study in a relaxing mood then only I can absorb the knowledge and theories behind every subject. 

To juggle with my going back home, studies, traveling and etc, I have been study really hard whenever I can, whenever I have the time. I go to bed at around 2am everyday, wake up at 10am if there is no class and earlier if there is class. I must have sufficient sleep. Then once I wake up, I would just sit in front of the laptop doing my work with full concentration, study, do notes as early preparation for final so that I do not have to read the same thing twice but read my own notes. In between that, I need to take a 15 minutes break so I would facebook, youtube a while which are my favorites. And if I completed my work earlier than I expected, I would watch some series. 

As I have the least interest in sports when I'm in the university, I do not do sports which I have another extra 2 hours studying when my friends go sports. I barely eat out which save me another 1 hour as I eat in room and do my project in the same time. I do complain to my boyfriend and my close friends that I feel suffocated being in room for too long a period sometime but I always tell myself:

This is what you have to pay for if you want to balance out between going back home, traveling and studying.

My batch mates do go back home every single weekend, some maybe every alternate week. But for them, I shouldn't go back at all because theirs are 2 hours of driving distance while mine is a 4 hours driving distance from the uni to airport, 2 hours flight, minus of the waiting time I have to spend in the airport, it's 6 hours, maximum I have ever spent in the car, bus, airport was 12 hours. But I feel worth it, definitely worth it to be back home for home-cooked, to see my family my cousins and my boyfriend. Its always good to be home.

So I always opted for midnight bus to the airport where I can sleep in the bus, wake up morning in the airport and with my laptop I'm able to complete another assignment while waiting for my flight, back home showered, took a 2 hours nap then lunch with boyfriend then visited my baby cousin and had fun with her. Even though it sounds really tiring but I'm pretty used to it.

Some may ask won't it affect my academic performance and etc? No. For me, no. Last semester I travelled really frequent here and there but manage to get all As and only one A- for final exam. So, I proved to certain people that they are wrong for saying that studying has always been my last priority in my life. 

I do admit that I have not much interest in engineering currently and studying for the sake of studying. I do not have the intention of working under people's orders for my entire life. I'm not that kind of person who is suitable to be a follower, I want to lead my own life my career myself. I want to be able to make decision on certain things. I want to do something which every morning waking up, I'm looking forward to it but not going to the office reluctantly. Life is meaningless in that way if you are to do something you are not interested in for your whole life. 

Then again, to become successful, I MUST learn how to be a good follower and a good leader in the same time, which I'm still learning. Today my friend threw me a question asking me.

"When you are old and at your 40s, looking back at your university life, what could be the most fun most interesting thing that you have done?"

He gave me a hard time thinking. And I still do not have an exact answer. But I know I enjoyed my university life a lot when I was in foundation, when everyone was very close. 

Me and another 2 females coursemates ever threw our bags outside the windows during lectures without lecturer noticing and sneaked out, went for lunch and went back room. Thats the first crazy thing. Me and another 4 friends: Jv, Meili, Arvin and Wison ever drove all the way from university to Ipoh just for a cup of mcd iced milo then drove all the way back again at 2am. Thats the second crazy thing. A bunch of us ever went out for a big night walk group and took pictures in the middle of the road outside the university. That's the third crazy thing.

I can keep going on and on. I did appreciate my university life but thats not enough for me yet. As we grow, we are becoming more and more mature. We stop doing all these things and be serious with our studies our relationships. What's driving us apart is the ultimate goal that each of us is chasing is becoming different and also bad rumors, really bad rumors. 

Something has to be done to change all this. As much as I miss the past, I know there is no reverse gear in the present, all I can do is to appreciate the present so I would not regret in the future.

Recently

After being away from a long hiatus (ignoring the recent random blabbering post), I finally have the damn time to sit down, sipping coffee and writing a decent entry to the heart contentment. There have been a lot of things happening around me which do not allow me to be as ignorance as before. 

All this while I have been giving people the impression that I'm probably the proudest girl you would ever see because I do not smile at people that often when I see them, or even if I do, it maybe doesn't look like a smile at all. I do admit that ever since last year, I have been really indifferent towards many things which I have no idea why, I have been pretty ignorance, which made my life a hell lot easier and happier. 

Ignorance has been a bliss because I do not have to get involved in friends' arguments, fights or anything. I can be a listener and comfort-er but I prefer to stay away from all the chaos, which made me become a closer friend to the virtual world than human beings.  My routine has been waking up, internet, lectures, assignments, call the family & bf, skype with sister once in a while then sleep. You see, sometime I wonder where's the interaction between me and the rest. 

Until recently, I have been making new friends and oh yeah, finally found someone whom I can clique together with. And in the same time, my friendships with the old pals just get better, which make me absolutely happier. 

And sharing(s) has never been this happier.

Till then. xx (boarding time)

Babbling

The reason why I'm here in the midst of all these tonnes of nonsense unfinished works is because

I'm feeling so damn it sien! 

I'm freaking 24 years old and been studying for the past 20 years which I'm beginning to feel weary of. All I want is to leave all these books and assignments nonsense and start my working life as soon as possible. No matter how tiring working life is going to be, I'm definitely gonna love it more than studying. Why?

Plain studying, you gain knowledge.

Working, you gain both knowledge and money.

And now my fyp2 is giving me problems damn you.

I miss the time when I can just travel to anywhere freely, without worrying nuts. 

Done babbling, bye. 

The ME Time! :D

I FINALLY have the time to sit back and relax, cooking a decent meal for the housemates and doing anything I like: nail polishing, playing with hair, staring at the wardrobe and etc etc after a really hectic week! I'm done with FYP 1 at least and 2 tests! 

All left for me to do now is to pack my stuffs and start counting down to my Christmas holiday. It's going to be a really eventful week. Have a guess why. :P So super duper excited but wait, there is one more thing for me to finish up: (secret!). Will announce in facebook soon if it is successful! 

Omg omg omg omg sooooo happy now! :D

The other day right after I played my hair with the hair band below, the flower came off from the band. Such a turn off! There gone my $$ of purchasing this cause I barely wear it T.T Like this so much and I have no idea how to fix it back. 

Anyway, will be back tomorrow. Time for some other things at the moment. =)

missing the matcha green tea ice cream currently. :/

Uni 3.0

Took me such a long time to blog about uni. :/ My university life has been all this while different from my brother's and sister's. My brother is studying in Melbourne, sister in London, while me? In Perak Shit Hole. But I have no blames. 

It was my choice at the first place to accept the scholarship.

But I clearly remember when I googled UTP before coming here, it mentioned that it is an engineering school, not a religion school. Why the phrase? Because i'm so sick shit of listening to certain group of people or whoever preaching about their religion nobility all day long. I'm not being irrespecutful or trying to stir anything up. I just don't understand why can't you guys just practice your own religions quietly without interfering with other people. 

You don't come and tell me what and what not to do. Just mind your own business. So freaking sick of all these shit. Even if it doesn't happen on me, by just listening to it I feel damn sick already. 

A random shot taken as early as 7am in the university

Putting all else aside, I have been trying hard to make my university life as interesting as I can. Been hanging out with the guys to Ipoh for dim sum, k session, movie, shopping or just for the sake of food quite frequent this semester. 

One thing I'm grateful of is my drilling lecturer whom also happened to be my fyp supervisor. He is really a nice and knowledgable guy and finally there is one lecturer in my university whom I really like. :) Previously I don't even bother who's going to teach me or what, but this guy he is really patient and passionate in teaching our class. 

Then also when I was attending a short course last week, my lecturer insisted me to chat with the course instructor wife who can't speak English. Pfffftt. The husband had to practically translate all our conversations and become our translator. Funny. Anyway, one thing that I should mention here was my instructor was 33 years old while his wife, only 18. :O

And she was really pretty.

Food wise, I had quit eating cafe food, again due to the fact that I had diarrhea or stomachache almost every time after that and they charged us student at very unreasonable price, serving vege soaked in oil, needless to say about the chickens. So, I had been eating real lots of dairy products nowadays and it was wayyyyyyy 10000 times wayyyyy better than cafe food.

My most favorite and the perfect combination would be: super cold low fat milk with kokocrunch as breakfast; bread with tuna and cheese + half boiled eggs + crackers & jams + grape as dinner.

Though it could be fattening at times since I do not exercise in UTP but who cares. Super love these two combinations. 

Back to work now. Can't wait for Christmas to come. 

Though I may not be celebrating it in a Church, but I will never forget the real meaning behind it. A mighty savior was born because He loves us and died for us on a cross for our sins. <3

Very Ill-Mannered Person!

Yesterday when I was so totally engrossed in the korean series - dream high, which I must mention was a damn good series that literally took all my attention. I had quitted watching series since mid 2010 cause I figured out that once I started watching, I had a difficult time to stop myself from it. 

So dream high, a must watch. The actors, all the main actors are so so so handsome.

Back to story, when I was all alone watching this series in my room with the damn door closed, one of my very very fucked up ill-mannered housemates can just opened the door, MY ROOM'S DOOR, without even knocking, came in put something on my absent roommate's table, and walked out like no one effing business.

She was so screwed up that she did not even bother to say a HI or BYE or even look at me?! What the F is wrong with you seriously? What the hell happened to your upbringings? Did you parents not teach you all these basic manners in LIFE which even my primary school niece/nephew know about it or you are just plain ignorant?

You know I have been controlling my temper really well recently that I rarely get angry at people. But people who have no manners at all, I really hate it, from the bottom of my heart. I hate ill-mannered people so much that I feel like reaping their skins off their face. SERIOUSLY.

I'm so sick of people like this. F

Some said that I should lock my door at the first place. Hello are you out of your mind or what? Door open or close, lock or unlock, the ULTIMATE MANNER, BASIC MANNER, before entering anyone's room, 

KNOCK THE DAMN DOOR! 

Uni 2.0

I think I have by far accepted the bloody fact that I'm in this hellhole/shithole or whatever else you called it. Yea, I'm back in my university. >;(

No one loves being here except freaks. No one gets excited over it. I'm really getting annoyed being here - the sun, the heat, the food, the cafe and etc. I don't know why. I wanted to fill in details for my current room, but that fat fellow is never in her office! I even went to her room, knocked on the door for soooo long and there's no one at all.

WHY THE HECK ARE YOU SO LAZY?! HOW MANY TIMES DO I HAVE TO GET TO YOUR OFFICE AND GO BACK WITH NOTHING AND OVER AND OVER AGAIN!?

Pfff. See, that's why I'm pissed.

That is my side of the bed. Looks comfy but still my bed at home is the best. I miss home so much. Can you imagine being away from university for 9 freaking months and back to where you started again? Oh noooossss!

And this is my favorite corner. Mannnnn I'm counting down to the days ahahaha so happy to receive a good news from him today even though part of it is bad for him. (It's all your fault Aimran, if you are reading this! >:P)

And this was my tea break earlier. Prune cakes baked by my mum, all the way from Miri. So delicious. And I almost finish it already. Damn. what am I gonna eat after that? Cereals with biscuits, oats with milk ..... (sien)

Anyway, as the saying goes, learn to dance in the rain. Perhaps I should quit complaining and start enjoying uni life to bits? Wonder when can I do that. Crap.

>:(

Will blog about my hongkong, macau, shenzhen trip soon hopefully.