Thursday, March 31, 2011

Brevity of life but everlasting love

*This article actually made me tear like a baby, please read*

有一对夫妻结婚后不久的一天,一次在两人吃晚饭的时候,女生突然对男孩说,如果有一天我死了,你会再娶其她女人吗?男孩说,啊哦,也许会吧,这得等你真死了才能说。 女孩听了生气地说:你就这么讨厌我吗?

男孩走到女生身旁,把女生抱起,傻丫头,我答应过你的不会骗你,如果我说我不娶可我后来娶了,那不是就骗了你了吗?
女生开心的笑了,躲在他怀里说道:好吧,就算你娶了,我也不会怪你的。我会永远爱你……

想象不到在那次之后短短的十天里,女生就与那男孩真的阴阳相隔了。

女生是死于车祸。一切来的那么突然,那时,女生正准备着放假后他们准备去哪儿旅行,那车就飞速冲出来了。女生死的并不痛苦,一瞬间就失去意识了。在女生死后,她感觉到人们七手八脚的把她抬上了一辆救护车,而她只是觉得好笑,因为她知道那是多余的。当女孩意识到自己已经死了,并知道自己的灵魂离开身体后,她并不是很难过,因为她没有什么朋友,在她生命里就只有那个男孩了,她只要时时刻刻能见到他,女生就很开心了,然后她就大步走回家里。

女孩穿透了墙壁,回到了家里,在屋里逛了一圈,抚摸着屋内那么多,那么多男孩曾经送过她的礼物。泪流下来了,这时女生才意识到,原来死了也是有眼泪的。

女孩叹了口气,回到她和男孩的小床上躺下,不知不觉中就睡着了。醒来后,天已经黑了,她感到了一丝寒气。在心里抱怨起她的男孩竟然忘了帮她盖被子。正打算起来埋怨她的男孩时,这时她才想起,她已经死了,已经从男孩的生命里消失了,而且是那么的彻底。男孩永远也不能看见她了,又长长的叹了口气。

接着女生起身,开始绕着屋子找他,最后在卫生间里才找到她心爱的男孩。他趴在浴缸上,卫生间里充满着酒气,地上被男孩吐的乱七八糟。女生捏着鼻子,蹲下来看他,竟发现男孩脸上全是泪痕,就连眼睛也肿起来了。天啊,她的男孩一直都是那么坚强,第一次看见他哭的那么伤心,女生好心疼。她试图把他拉起来,可手穿越了男孩的身体,女生试了一次又一次,直到倒下。头一次,她才知道自己是多么的无能,女生慢慢地拖着身体轻轻地吻了吻男孩的嘴唇,然后在他的身边坐下。除了这样,她再也想不到还有什么其他的办法了。
这时男孩闭着眼睛傻傻地动着嘴角:丫头,不要走,不要……女生知道他说的是醉话,但是仍然在心里对男孩说:小傻瓜,我这么爱你,怎么舍得离你而去呢。

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半年后,屋内的一切都没有改变,日子渐渐地恢复正常。男孩仍旧准时准点的上下班,只是不再爱笑,回到家里常常地趴在桌上工作到深夜。而女生,也一直在家里陪着男孩,是用另一种方式。

直到有一天,一个陌生的女人闯进了她们的家里。这个女人很漂亮,留着长长的直发,穿的也好性感,身上散发着淡淡的,好闻的香水味。这时女生不禁低头看了看自己身上的娃娃裙和兔兔拖鞋,才知道自己就象个孩子,在这半年里,她爱着的男孩已经变的那么优秀,死去的女生才发现,她好象已经配不上他了。

接着陌生的女人一起陪着男孩做好了晚饭,但是自从两人进到屋里后,男孩始终都没有和女人讲过话。虽然有时女人会说两句,但是男孩始终也没有回答。终于在吃饭的时候,那女人开口了:熙总,我真的很喜欢你,她不是已经离开你很久了吗,难道你就一辈子守着这个房子,一个人过下去吗?请你接受我,好吗,我一定会和她一样爱你的。男孩仍然没有说话,眼睛悄悄地看了看挂在墙壁上女生的照片。这一切,死去的女生都看在眼里,但是她的一切男孩却永远也看不见。

这时,那女人又说话了:熙,为了来到你家里跟你一起吃次饭,我求了你那么多次,难道你就什么也不说,就赶我走吗?为什么你对什么人都那么冷。接着,女人流泪了。这时男孩终于说话了:婷,你会不会嫌这菜太淡了,丫头她说过不许太多盐的,所以我不敢多放。她做的这道菜可好吃了,每次我她做好,我都要她亲自给我夹。对了,你喜欢这张小木桌吗,是她陪我一起买的,还有她吃饭的时候老爱掉筷子,每次都嚷着我去帮她换,真是调皮。说到这时,男孩傻傻地笑了笑:每次都败给她了,她老是那么任性,记得有一次在户外吃烧烤吃不小心吃到一个辣椒,坚持叫我去帮她买可口牌子的矿泉水,因为其它的水她都喝不惯的,害我那次我找了好久,好久……呵呵。还有一次,她为了给我惊喜,早上5点多就起来做早餐,结果却看电视把早餐全弄焦了。这个小糊涂虫……不知不觉,半个小时过去了,男孩还在继续对那女人说着他和她曾经在一起的点点滴滴。这时,那女人站起身:熙,我明白了。说完,含着泪走了。

此刻女生才知道,原来她的男孩对她以前的点点滴滴记的是那么的清楚。女生感动的又一次哭了。此时男孩慢慢的来到她的相框前,轻轻地抚摸着照片里的,女生的脸,一次又一次地抚摸着。不久男孩哭了,哭的好大声,好大声。男孩对着女生的照片说:丫头,为什么那么早,那么早你就抛下了我,你……你怎么可以丢下我……我还有好多话要对你说的,还有好多事都没有为你去做,我知道我以前很多都做的不够好,我好想去弥补啊。男孩继续哭着:亲爱的,你知道吗,在这2年里,婷已经是第4个说喜欢我的女人了。我怕啊,我好怕有一天我会忍不住,我好怕,好怕你会怪我……我好怕,我好怕见到你哭,即使在梦里……呜呜呜……亲爱的,你曾经问过我一个问题,我现在回答你,如果有一天你死了,我不会再娶别的女人的……

男孩哭着哭着睡着了,眼里,脸上的泪珠都还没有干掉。

原来死了后,不仅能流泪,还能感到痛。比活着的时候的任何一种痛更强烈,更刻骨铭心,那就是:死后的心痛……

:'(

Guys out there, Will you be like that guy?

Doll? :O


dress: online

Bought this dress for more than over a year and believe it or not, this is my first time wearing it because it made me look fat before that and I still do look fat now, bah!

Outing


pants: topshop
top: supre australia

Work: Thursday


believe it or not, this piece can be worn to clubs as well :P

Vintage


I decided to go a little more vintage today and I think I quite like it. Gives me a different feeling at least. :)

Wednesday, March 30, 2011

Perfect Shot


This is like my dream. Will definitely want to be shot in such posture in the future given a chance.

Dating


feels good!

top: room7
headband: bangsar
shorts: roxy
belt: esprit

Evening Dinner


dress from nichii

I don't care what you gonna say but nichii is one of my favorites!

Work: Wednesday



mum bought me this dress from kl <3 (;

Tee


top: esprit
pants: pull & bear
belt: esprit

I'm beginning to love wearing t-shirt again :))

My Cookings :)


all by me *proud*


combination of prawns, bacon, passion fruit and pork soup


salmon fish with homemade sauces


my rum & cola pork ribs


Since I'm banned from shopping for 3 months, I decided to shift my attention more to cooking, which has become one of my favorite past time. However, for no reasons, my cookings turn out more towards the italian/mexico/western style instead of chinese. Perhaps because of the spice that I used, nevertheless it definitely taste good and I'm extraordinary proud of my specially made rum & cola pork ribs.

I cooked all the above for our dinner on Monday and it turned out to be unexpectedly nice. I got a 10/10 for my pork ribs from the fussy bf even. :)

The Terminal


*groupie*



the girl who has a mouth make of gold



My first time at The Terminal last week singing k with the gang and my gf. She has a mouth make of gold because she hardly sang and even if she did, it was softer than the birds' chirping.

Will definitely go there again, I hope soon. :)

Monday, March 28, 2011

Before I decided to ride bicycle


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top: bangsar
shorts: roxy
cap: nike

Crabs & Spinach


crabs with fried meehoon from new thompson



my trial: spinach with mushroom and beef


I decided to cook a very simple vege the other day using some italian herbs and own mixed spice. Turn out not bad and I got a 9.12/10 -.- I wonder where the 0.12 comes from anyway.

Offshore Experience


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I'm back onshore and missing the magnificent view offshore. Everything seems to be sooooooo huge that I could barely describe it. Being in the middle of the sea, I truly appreciate God's amazing creation for the world seems extraordinary peaceful out there, not forgetting my precious phone line, steady walking/sleeping/eating/bathing place where it is not shaking vigorously or even a little, gosh i miss home even just for few days.



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We planned to catch the sunset in the evening after a very early dinner but seems like we missed it. Yes, we kept feeding ourselves non stop on the barge and slept like babies. Because the barge was moving left - right - left constantly, the theory is like we are sleeping in a baby sway, we have no problem sleeping everyday, except when we are walking and the rest, we felt dizzy everywhere we went. I was off the full PPE zone and thats why I was in casual.



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During the nighttime when we had nothing to do, we would just came out to the deck enjoying the sea breeze and watching the operation going on as rigs never sleep. Managed to watch how nitrogen tank was transferred from the boat to the barge and placed on it. The whole process seems to be so dangerous to us. One mistake and pffff, bid goodbye to the world.



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What I can say about offshore is it was truly an experience worth experiencing :P You gotta be there to know how we actually feel.

Thursday, March 24, 2011

Work Half Day: Thursday


blouse: room7
jeans: MNG

Will be off to Labuan in 15 mins time hence more on Monday!


Wednesday, March 23, 2011

Offshore Comes True


Finally, my turn to go offshore tomorrow onwards! Never expect we the internees will be given a chance for such experience. From BOSIET training which covered helicopter underwater escape training (HUET), fire fighting, sea survival training to now, to the barge otto 3 offshore tomorrow, the journey and training definitely worth it!

Too bad we will be going by boat which will take us 1 hours 45 minute. Maybe boat could be better than traveling by chopper? :D I'm being optimistic one thing for sure.

Work: Wednesday


my favorite piece :)

dress: bangsar
shoes: bangsar

Drizzling Wednesday


Planned to go for a walk nearby, planned spoilt when it started drizzling. Anyway, nothing beats a good long nap on a rainy day.


hoodie: zara
shorts: roxy

Evening Dinner


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dress from nichii

Tuesday, March 22, 2011

Work: Tuesday


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This dress is so colourful which i'm so in love with it!

Evening: to the park


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bangle: roxy
necklace: roxy
earrings: diva
tee: bangsar
shorts: topshop
bag: nike sports

Lalapan


my utmost favorite in miri


Lalapan: Steamed vege, fried taufu, frieds tempeh (a traditional soy product), a choice of either fish/chicken/prawns, and the main ingredient of all: sambal/belacan sauce which is so spicy and addictive that you will ask more and keep going back to the restaurant just for this.

This food is heavenly delicious I can assure you! I'm drooling right now thinking about it. Oh my lalapan, how I miss you.

Cry Me A River

I went to meet my supervisor just now and i'm screwed. He asked me to perform calculation on directional difficult index in short DDI.

Based on the journals we read and discuss just now, the formula for DDI will be as such:

DDI = log [MD x (AHD/TVD) x TOR]

Where:

MD = measured depth
AHD = along hole displacement
TVD = true vertical depth
TOR = tortuosity

But the question is, how to calculate tortuosity? Both of us have no idea of the formulae and he just asked me to google it or look up for in it SPE.

T_T My SV will be outstation to Perth for 3 weeks so i'm screweddddd... ... haih!

Strict Dietary Plan

I'm restricting myself from consuming oily food and junks which seems to be utterly difficult to me because I just love them. Grrrrr. I'm doing this not for the sake of getting any thinner but for getting rid of the pimples!

I'm going to apply the most neolitic way of washing my face. No more relying on stupid skincare products but wash using clean filtered water only. If it gets better, it just simply means that i'm of sensitive skin type and screw those products they are not working at all.

Can someone tell me the best way to get rid of pimples, PLEASE?! Otherwise, I will complain about my breakouts every single day I assure you, until there're gone!

I even have to use plural noun instead of singular, damn.

Monday, March 21, 2011

Work: Monday


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my 5 inches tall killer heel


blouse: nichii
skirt: g2000
shoes: bangsar
accessories: bangsar, imported from korea


Wim said I look so lady today when I bumped into him. Uh, Feels good!

Simplicity


bebe inspired


Never know that pink can match with black so perfectly!

Floral


dress from topshop

Argh!

With the pimples becoming more and more obvious and appalling, I decided to quit eating meats for good for a month, and definitely no more spicy and junk food. :(


I'm gonna miss you, mcd.
I'm gonna miss you, lalapan (oh I had it last Sunday :D )
I'm gonna miss you, laksa.
I'm gonna miss you, fried chicken wings.
I'm gonna miss you, french fries.
I'm gonna miss you, nuggets.
I'm gonna miss you, cheesels.
I'm gonna miss you, korean instant noodles.
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For the past one month I went out dining with bf, he never NEVER forget to count the pimples on my forehead. Also, I bombarded Ming Hui and my mum with the same question every single day without fail.

"Is it obvious?" "Is it getting better?" "Is it uglyyyy?!?!?" "HOWWW!"

Seriously I do not mind minor breakouts once in a while but please not right beside the nose can? I look like some cat having the whiskers being cut off! Crapssss!

Hmm

I decided to remove the post under the label "boyfriend" judging from the stats that showed people are so highly/greatly interested in him and my relationship life. Therefore, removing it and keeping you guys wonderrrrr will do good! (:

Maybe I should write less on my personal life.

Sunday, March 20, 2011

To the 60's



Decided to tryyyy going back to the 60s but apparently I do not quite like it. I might wear it once but definitely not twice. But, it's definitely interesting, at least I do not look dull everyday.

Saturday, March 19, 2011

Surprise Dinner


before heading to Dynasty Hotel


dress: de' elegant
bag: some boutique in london
bracelet: imported from korea
necklace: chanel
earrings: imported from korea
hairpin: imported from korea


The color and quality of this dress grabbed my attention among so many other choices and thus, my new love. :)

Sports Wear


top: nike sports
pants: samuel & kevin
shoes: adidas sports

Simple Dinner


top: topshop
jeggings: topshop
jacket: puma ferrari
bag: longchamp
shoes: charles & keith

To Club in Miri, I rather sleep


lemuel the vocalist @ CB


I think Lemuel is the main reason why CB is always packed with hot chicks. Even I myself hardly took my eyes off him especially when he was singing "waiting for you" by 胡彦斌. But too bad he is a Filipino and I was having a hard time communicating with him. Pffft.

Anyway, clubs in Miri seriously bored me off. It's either i'm too early or the people just love gluing their butts on the chairs, listening to songs, shake their heads from left to right and back constantly, drink a little, bluff a little and thats all. I did not see anyone on the dance floor at all except for one blonde wannabe and Preveen.



sylvia and alex


My initial plan was to make sure this guy got wasted before sending him back later after that but my plan failed miserably. :(

Thereby, I declareeeeeee that I quit clubbing in Miri. I rather spend the time staying at home or enjoying a plate of fried noodle slowly at any cafe shop (i'm craving for fried noodle now so pardon me).



i miss thisssss


I miss my usual clubbing group so much. :( I miss Fuad, Chuang Hwee, Mei Li, Zeuxiant, Steven Ngui (even though u always act emo there), Lee Chon, Darren and so many more. Ughhh.

By the way, if clubbing = i'm a bad girl, go bang your head on the wall now.

Good night!